Beautiful Day

It has been quite a while since I last posted hasn't it?

I've been studying for exams and working my butt off, so I guess I do have an excuse. However, I'm still managing to turn out ficlets for POTC like nothing else, which is interesting, but they are exactly the little brain breaks I need right now, which is freaking awesome.

I'm currently sitting in my living room, in my roommates chair waiting for my boyfriend to show up, he's going to get here soon I hope, 'cause I'm a lot tired. It's been just under a week since I last saw him, and it really does suck to not see your boy for a week, I really really do miss him, a lot. And, this time, it's been worse, because of working almost all of last week, I didn't really have time to write him proper emails and so he was a bit grumpy with me, because I've been tired and just not trying hard to be creative. *sighs* Ah well, that's okay, I managed to make it up to him with some really interesting ones today.

Today was an awesome day, let me tell you, finally, a gorgeous day that I don't have to work during! Other then getting my last shot for the Gardisil vaccine, and my arm kinda being sore all day, it was a fantastic day. My roomies and I sat outside for the whole afternoon, some of us studying, some of us pretending to study. It was fun, I got a little sunburnt on my shoulders, but that's alright, I need the Vitamin D, and besides, I'll tan better now. After we spent the whole afternoon in the sun, during which time I did yet another load of laundry, and actually spent a decent amount of time writing out study notes to work from tomorrow, we all went to Wilf's, which is the campus pub, and that was tremendously fun. They have really yummy french fries there. I like them a lot. After Wilf's for dinner, we came home and watched Juno.

But, before we watched Juno, we rescued a lost cat, who we found wandering around the neighbourhood and took him home to his house. He was a very cute cat, whose name is apparently Trout, which, in my opnion, is a great name for a cat.

Juno is like...the cutest movie ever. I just love it. And, I *heart* Ellen Page for her awesome portrayal of Juno, who is rather quirky and altogether kind of strange, but is still just a 16 year old girl who has to grow up real fast. I also love Jennifer Garner in this one, she's freaking brilliant. But then, I love her in virtually everything she does, 'cause she's just so cute!

I have my last three exams this week, and then I'm back home to the O-dot, S-dot, where I will be chilling for two weeks before heading out to Chicoutimi. I'm really excited to go to Chicoutimi, and am hoping to learn a lot and do a lot and experience some really great francophone people. At the same time though, I'm really apprehensive about the whole thing, the fact that I don't get to contact the family I am going to be living with is kind of scary, I would like to know who they are before I move in with them, but I'm sure they will be awesome. I'm just nervous I think, because I'm going to be so far away from my family and friends for so long. I'm also really going to miss the boy.

Speaking of boy, he better get here soon or I am going to simply pass out from tiredness. *sighs*

Today was the epitome of a lazy day. I spent the whole day in front of my computer, except to get up to transfer laundry from the washer to the dryer or the dryer to the basket. I also did get up to sit down in front of the tv for two hours to watch The Legend of Zorro because I have a minor thing for Antonio Banderas.

I did work today though, spent the better part of it studying for my French oral exam on Wednesday. Which is a good thing, I should have used the rest of the time to study for my stats exam on Thursday, but I couldn't concentrate anymore.

It's been a few days since I last posted, so I'm going to sort of catch people up a bit.

Since about, February (i think?) I've belonged to the Women's Centre on campus here, and it has been awesome. It means meetings on Sunday nights, and hanging out with some of my new favorite people. Anyway, yesterday we had our last hurrah for the year and had a potluck. I provided greek salad and nacho dip, and man, there was some really good food. One of the girls made this crazy pasta casserole thing that had mushrooms in it, and I was just like...oh my god, let me eat it all! It was delicious, and then, Zile (pronounced Zee-la), made these awesome chocolate crinkle cookies, and they were heavenly.

After we ate, we made these things called 'Generosity Jars.' Essentially everyone gets a jar and then everyone else gets to write nice things and put the paper into the jar. I got so many lovely words, it just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy, which is what they are supposed to do. I also won an award for being the Centre's Best Storyteller, which I am taking to mean that they all think i talk too much. *laughs* Which is okay, 'cause I know I do.

This week was also made awesome by the fact that I received word that I am headed for Chicoutimi, Quebec this summer to spend five weeks in an intensive French immersion programmed. I am totally excited about. To get to Chicoutimi, I will have to take the train, which will be an interesting adventure that I am decidedly looking forward to. *claps hands* I found out in class on Wednesday, and I was totally sad that I couldn't just jump up and down and yell like I wanted to. It absolutely made my day. I will be staying with a francophone family while I am there, and I hope they will like me. *crosses fingers*

So, tomorrow I have to mail all the papers in for going to Chicoutimi and call them to send through my deposit that guarantees my spot. I'm nervous, but excited all the same, it's going to be awesome. I can't wait to go, I'm going to miss Jan so much, but I am hoping that he will come and surprise me and meet me in Quebec City for a weekend. Which would be absolutely awesome, otherwise, we won't see each other for around five weeks, and though we've been apart longer before, it's going to be so hard. I already miss him terribly when he's gone on the road for two weeks at a time, that we literally will sometimes spend the entire three days he's home attached at the hip. *sighs*

I'm also still trying to find a place for him and I to live in the fall when we come back, since we're moving in together, which is going to be lovely! *smiles* I can't wait.

Skipping

I'm skipping class this morning, 'cause I don't feel like walking in the rain. I'll have to go up to campus eventually, but this way i don't have to sit through presentations and, even though my one friend is presenting today, i would still be bored. I'm also skipping class 'cause I am exhausted and likely to fall asleep instead of listening. I don't even know why I am so tired, it's stupid.

I think I'm more grumpy lately, and I don't know why, I've been wrung out at work on numerous occasions to the point of snapping at customers because I'm just so bloody tired of all teh bullshit that I get put through on a regular basis there. I doubt anything will come of it, but I gave the management team a nasty review on the Employee Satisfaction Survey we had to take. It's irritating that because I'm just a part-timer who goes to University and still wants to have a life on top of that, I get scheduled to work every single freaking weekend, and if I want to go home, then it means I have to plan it a month in advance, 'cause they can't make the schedule at all flexible.

I'm also always more grumpy when Jan is gone, and he's gone again, all the way out to BC and I'm hoping I'll hear from him sometime today, i miss him so much. It's a little bit like a piece of me goes with him every time he leaves, the piece of me that is nice and friendly and sweet. *sighs* I just don't want him to leave any more, it hurts every time we have to say goodbye.

The other day, last Friday, before he left, we were sitting on my bed, in the morning, just being close to one another and being silly and he asks me; "so, you're probably going to want a ring for that finger aren't you?" I was like, of course, and then we got into a discussion about what kind of ring it would be, and I'm secretly hoping it will be an engagement ring, but a promise is fine for now, since we have only been together for just over 18 months and, even though I woud say yes no matter what, I think a promise is what I need now. He asked me in an email last night what time of year I think I'd like to get married in, and I said September. I've always loved September, it's warm enough to be outside, but also cool enough that we won't all be dying in the heat like we would if we got married in July like I used to think I wanted.

I want to marry him, spend the rest of my life with him, and I'm a little scared of that feeling. It's really powerful, kinda knocks me over everytime I feel it. It's getting more powerful too, just like the rest of my feelings for him. I know it's cliché, but I really do love him more and more every day.

And now, I'm in a much better mood. *smiles*